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A little bit

Decided to update my blog today. Not knowing why, but i am feeling a little down today. I guess?
In fact, I am happy, just not genuinely happy. Its like, I am happy because I want to make my life happier. Yes, very unhealthy emotion state. Not depending fully unto God has definitely killed me in some ways. God is calling, Angie. Time to trust. Why have so little faith?  I am constantly worrying that sometimes i forget that God feeds the sparrows and I am worth much more than that. God clothes flowers that are fading tomorrow. So what is hindering me from stepping further? Time to heal from the past and look forward.
Yesterday's sermon was about looking forward. Undeniably, it struck my heart a little bit. Pastor mentioned a very new concept that I have never thought of before, "Possessing spiritual gifts and calling from God is like stepping on holy ground", "Use it wisely", "Accept it".
Until when will I accept the fact that I am not going back to the past anymore. I am separated from my family. It is like living a life with amputation. Get that? It is painful, it is inconvenient, it reminds you of the good times you had. and it hurts you.
But today, I decided to pick up a little more faith, a little more courage. I always want things to get fixed, but I never let go. and now, I want to be a little bit stronger, I want God to take charge of my life. No longer live for myself but for God, who have never left me, in all circumstances.
Thank God, for this life, for bringing me out of home, for giving me a new life, for the trails, and for your love.

Blossom of hearts

I found you.

Never thought of getting together, not even crossing my mind. I got to admit that I am kind of a rationale person, which means, i prioritize facts over feelings.  When i realized that I have fallen to you, my brain told me that 'It's not gonna work out', 'too many limitations', 'no future can be seen'. How devastating it is to know that  you have to give up on someone who occupies your heart? I want to apologize for the hurt and the ignorance that I have given to you for the past few years, and i want to thank you for waiting for me, for not giving up, for saving a space for me. :)
After the failure from the past long distance relationship, i constantly remind myself that distance is the killer in a relationship. But to you, I am willing to give it a try. Distance does not matter anymore when someone meant so much to you. Although it requires more trust and efforts, and might even leads to nothing in the end, but it is okay. I do not want to regret, at least we try.
I really appreciated you for working so hard to avoid me feeling insecure. You are always there for me, not physically, but virtually. Haha. Facetime is like the best communication tool for us huh?:) I am so touched when you took our monthsary so seriously! Cant believe that you sent me a bouquet of flowers of my favorite colors! I was so surprised. Not only because of the flowers, but the sincerity that touches me. Thanks, you cheeky boy,
Often i like to think back our good old times. I cannot forget the first impression you had on me, which you told me recently. And you confessed to me the next day you got to know me. I scolded you for being so impulsive, I remember. The times where you walked past my class just to have a glance of me. You bought me my favorite korean singer new released album as birthday present and you gave it to me during recess time. You texted me everyday even though you knew that I was attached at that time. I taught you Chemistry when exam was approaching. You helped me with my video shooting project. All these memories have made us a little special, because you have always been there for me, big or small, with or without me knowing. <3
And after i left to Singapore for one and the half year, we got together. I cant really recall how we got close back together because i remember that there was one period of time when you tried to avoid me :( But i am really really glad that we got together! You are the best boyfriend. You got no temper, you are patient, kind and you prioritize me over everything. Whenever I am craving for something (particularly food), you will bring me there, be it near or far from our house place.You planned my holidays and you even skipped lessons just to spend some time with me. Moments with you are always so precious because the time we have are always limited. We cant meet everyday just like what every other couple do. We are often separated, missing each other, and waiting for the day where we will meet again. We are uncertain of our future, we cant celebrate our special dates together. All these bring me very down sometimes. But you always remind me to stay strong and how much you love me. The assurance that you have given to me has definitely make me feel better, in some ways. 3 'S'- Stay strong, stay sweet, and stay still. <3

Love you b.
:>

"My Best Friend"


I never had no one
I could count on
I've been let down so many times
I was tired of hurtin'
So tired of searchin'
'Til you walked into my life
It was a feelin'
I'd never known
And for the first time
I didn't feel alone

You're more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Everytime I look at you
I don't know where I'd be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You're my best friend
You're my best friend, oh yeah

You stand by me
And you believe in me
Like nobody ever has
When my world goes crazy
You're right there to save me
You make me see how much I have
And I still tremble
When we touch
And oh the look in your eyes
When we make love

You're more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Everytime I look at you
And I don't know where I'd be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You're my best friend
You're my best friend

You're more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Everytime I look at you
And I don't know where I'd be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You're my best friend
You're my best friend (my best friend)
You're my best friend (my best friend)

This is a song specially dedicated to you dear :)

Time

One last day to leaving back to Singapore. Each time when it comes to this, i have intricate feelings. 

Looking at myself in the mirror, I realised that how much thinga have changed. Since when my hair has reached shouder-length, since when i have become a tough cookie..

Time seems to accelerate. 

When i expect people to change as well, these people prove me wrong. 

My heart tells me to cherish and treasure these people more everytime when we meet up. 

I count my blessings when i think of them, who care for me, who take effort to spend time with me, who mind of my everything, who make it a big event every time when i come back. 

My heart melts because of them. 

"You all are the blessings in my life.

All of you(except my family) got no 

obligation to treat me so awesomely, yet you do. I dont know how things gonna be in the future, nobody knows what is ahead of us. But at least in this moment, i feel loved."

:3

                     Lost in heritage.

遗憾

我多么想此时此刻的感觉是不真实的。

遇见你，是我不懂得如何珍惜

从一开始却没想到在这样的夜里会想起你

这种感觉并没有为我带来任何涟漪

因为心理认知这是一个没有结局的结果

看着时间慢慢的走

我离离开的时间越来越近

也离离开你的距离越来越快

也许

回去后看不见你

心里也可以好过一些

我怪你

当初为何不开口

那么现在也许我也不必走

可是这既然是我们的缘分

我也只好看着它悄悄的流走..